Sonntag, 3. November 2013

vertiginous week

HI GUYS! there are so many issues around me. yeah, me. I've been patient since the first day I stepped my feet on my campus. for this entry, it's gonna be about me. only me. it's time to awaken myself that:
it's my own thought. please respect it. thank you.
I stick that note everywhere; laptop's and phone's wallpaper, notebook, inside my pencil case, etc. I need to be reminded of that note. so that I won't feel hurt or broken or down. the note is my talisman to behave, to think, to act positively. it's hard; but worth try.

anyway, here's the recap of another mentally-tired week (which I kinda believe that the following weeks are also mentally-tired weeks):

Monday, 28 October 2013
normal classes. nothing special. on the last class, I was dismissed earlier because the lecturer had something important to do; that's what he said. so, yeah, got home earlier. I watched movies, as my homework were done. entertainment is quite important, isn't it?
I shared a little to one of my friends. it's about..... nah, it's not really important actually. I just needed someone to share to. thanks, girl! I don't know how your point of view is (and yea idc either) but at least you know the latest condition of our beloved organization.

Tuesday, 29 October 2013
remember that I still have one big event at the end of the semester? yea, it's getting intense. sometimes I don't understand why I should be compared to anyone else. your comparison thingy is not motivating me to do better; not even a bit. as I said at the beginning of this entry, yea, I've been patient for a long time. it doesn't mean that you can exploit/harness/take advantage of my patience. I'm simply not a doll; not a pawn. I know it sounds selfish if I mention that I have gazillion stuffs to do; that's nonsense, since I've known the risks and consequences. that's why I've never mentioned about it. but that's not how I work; we, professionals, work.
I understand every single person has their own hidden agenda. don't dodge it. I know you, reader, also have hidden agenda; even it's a tiny one. my suggestion, if you wanna work your hidden agenda out, do it cleanly, smoothly, and silently.
I'm not talking about some particular persons. I'm talking as in general. because on this day, I felt that those people fought for their hidden agenda stupidly. sorry, I don't judge. maybe I did it stupidly too. this is a suggestion for all of us: we have to be smarter to do something.

Wednesday, 30 October 2013
glad there's no night class on this day. but, uh, I couldn't do the quiz well. I think I'm gonna drop this one. hahh~ this day was quite tiring; mentally, because of something that happened on Tuesday  I could hardly concentrate on my last class. it's simply because Wednesday's schedule is too tight.
then I had another meeting. it's fun. glad my juniors are working well.  good luck on your first project!
and thank you for someone who made my day a little bit brighter. I love the unexpected things yo do to me.

Thursday, 31 October 2013
only had two classes on Thursday, and one of them was cancelled. so I actually finished my class for this day at 9; supposed to be at 13. went back to Jakarta at night around 18.30ish. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Friday, 01 November 2013
day off should be beautiful, nice, and relaxing. but not for me. though I had no class, there's a ton of things that I should do. typical me. hahaha.
my 5th semester is the period where all hustles happen: gazillion tasks, assignment, homeworks, quizzes, final projects, organizations, committees, internship; BLARGH! it's simply the peak of my 4 years as a university student. of course the other peak would be the OFSE and thesis stuffs. hope I can manage them all excellently.

Saturday, 02 November 2013
normal day with German course; except having three tests at the course. then went to a mall for the rest of the day. played basketball, but gasping until reached home. hahahaha. me no longer good at sport, I guess.

another holiday on Tuesday next week. I'l be staying at the house that near the uni. I need time to be totally alone. I think it's the time. I'm planning for a full day of no phone, but not sure I can do it. it's not me who can't do it, but my role at campus wouldn't let me. LOL. perks of being too busy~

I'm re-reading Daa! Daa! Daa!; a Japanese manga about an UFO baby. SUPER CUTE! I love babies. oops :p

TWO MONTHS TO 2014. I don't know how to react. should I happy? excited? sad? nervous? frightened? relieved?

“Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.” -Mahatma Gandhi

-calzsf

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